She finds her voice again, but this time she ROARS

This is where I left off and this is where “I” begin again.

“I’ve been told by a few people that I always find the silver lining in life. Here’s the best part, I did. I was about to experience what it is like to lose everything I had over the next few years. But like the Phoenix, this smart and tough woman would rise up from the ashes and my children are my witnesses. This would really be the first time in my life that I created the Emily that I knew could shine.

This is where the blog gets good. This is where I decide that I am going to accomplish those goals I wanted as a young woman. This is where I show you that you can walk through crap in life and still be strong and shine!

This is where we all find our voice.”

What am I supposed to do with my life now? How am I to navigate the waters with 3 kids, 3 dogs and a cat? How will I keep this house running? This next part of my life is where I learn how really strong I am because I am about to lose everything from the roof over my head to my car. I don’t know what the hell I was thinking to try to incorporate dating into my world because who wants a broken woman? I have nothing to offer a man. My heart is hollow and so is my bank account. Dating would be a time filler so I remember how to behave outside of the normal daily grind of keeping my shit together as I walk through financial devastation. You know, when you reach the bottom there is only one way up and I would be damn sure that once I lifted myself out of that place that it would be because I did it. I did not follow a man in that direction. I created it. All me. I needed that victory because when I first started this blog, that single person made me feel like I could never amount to anything in this world unless a man handed it to me. Here is the point of demarkation for me. It is all on me now and I have a lot to prove to me. There is still one more super crappy relationship to follow because apparently I still had more to learn in that area of my life, but that’s just a relationship. For now, this girl needed to show the world that she can do this on her own and the first order of business is going to back to college because my education was everything to me and that was the first thing taken away.

Are you ready for this journey? I have a lot more to say.

This is my launching point!

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